just a vent

This is just a vent. I have had enough today. Yesterday our cat got out and lost in the woods. Spending as much time as I did searching the woods for him has caused me to be pretty usesless today. My fibro pain level has been pretty high all day. I hate when things need to get done and I want to do them but my body just can't.Even standing on my feet long enough to make sandwiches for lunch was too much to handle. I started my day letting my family know it was one of those days. My DD11 has fought me on every turn. Ask her to clear the kitchen table-attitude. Ask her to sweep the sala floor-attitude. And so on. After some back adn forth arguing she gives in and does a half-a$$ed job which doesn't really help. My 15 yr old niece has been stepping up and asking what I need done or just doing what she sees needs to be done. Of course DD sees this as me only making her work because she doesn't hear me asking my niece to do stuff. DD11 is wanting to help me with parenting the 4 little kids. This isn't helping me at all. It is a bunch of yelling and screaming from not only her but from her brother and sister, 4 and 3. My own little kids aren't listening and acting up. Lots of hitting, pinching, pushing and general meanness going on. They know I can't do a whole lot about it since I can't pick them up, spank them, walk them to their room etc. My son has been in his room many times today for running his mouth. DH has tried to do what he can but he had to go to work. I am so disappointed in my own kids today not to mention frustrated. On top of that my friend who has been losing craptons of weight brought me 2 garbage bags of clothes she no longer fits in. Size 16s. She has expensive taste adn nice clothes. She is also a shopaholic so much of it still had tags on it. Not a single piece fits! When I went to change out of my pajama shorts (the one pair of shorts and 2 pair of jeans that fit were in the wash) I discovered that my size 20s (which I never wear because they are always too big to be comfortable) are snug! I sat on my bed and cried. I want to lose weight. I want to go to the gym but I am hurting. Exercise is where it is at because my eating is ok. I have to exercise though since weight gain is a side effect of one of my meds. I am basically feelign sorry for myself today and I know it. When the pain level gets this high and my pain meds don't help this tends to happen. I just want to sit and cry. Feels like nothing is going right. 

Cranberry helps that? I always drank it for yeast infections and UTIs. Maybe I will have to pick some up. I made it to church with the kids (all 6 of them!) and feel so much better now. Life will go on. It always does. Tomorrow is a new day.