Hi, y'all. For those of you that will still have me here, I offer my humblest apologies for being gone for so long. I know I have so many pm's that still have yet to be answered. I'm sorry for that, too. This is the first time I've been able to get a moment alone for some computer time in about a month. I like this new format, though; it goes a lot faster on my dad's slow computer.
So, I have lots to tell you all, lots of things going on, but right now I need someone to talk to and many, MANY prayers. DH just left a little while ago to go back to work for the next four days, and dropped a bomb on me last night that he "may" have cheated on me. I asked him what he meant by that, and of course I was already beginning to get livid, and he said not to worry about it and he doesn't know for sure if anything happened at all and he shouldn't have even brought it up. I told him to grow some balls and be a man and tell me the truth, and he just kept saying don't worry about it and for me to be quiet, that he didn't think I was gonna react that way...blah, blah, blah.
Things were going a little better between he and I until now, and now I don't know what to think, what to do...I've gathered that what he's hinting around at is that he got drunk and something may have happened while he was down there hangin' w/ some of his new "friends." But he keeps saying he doesn't know for sure, and if he says that he did and he didn't it'll cause what he called a "sh~t storm" to happen. I told him why did he even bring it up. He still says, "I don't know."
I have done nothing to deserve this. I have been the best wife I know how to be and I love him so much it hurts, and look at what he's doing to me. He's killing me. This pain he's causing me is killing me.
I couldn't even say bye to him today. I just shut his door and walked away. He didn't even try to do anything to reconcile anything.
I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice from any of you, or just prayers, or what. I've been gone off of here for so long I feel like I don't even deserve to be here anymore. You have all been such great friends to me, and I can't even make time to be a friend to y'all anymore, and I hate it, and I hope those of you that can and are willing will forgive me.
Please pray for me. Tell me what you would do, what I should do? I don't want to throw our marriage away, but it looks like that's what he wants to do.
I just don't know how much more I can take...
Thanks for listening (reading); sorry so long.
So, I have lots to tell you all, lots of things going on, but right now I need someone to talk to and many, MANY prayers. DH just left a little while ago to go back to work for the next four days, and dropped a bomb on me last night that he "may" have cheated on me. I asked him what he meant by that, and of course I was already beginning to get livid, and he said not to worry about it and he doesn't know for sure if anything happened at all and he shouldn't have even brought it up. I told him to grow some balls and be a man and tell me the truth, and he just kept saying don't worry about it and for me to be quiet, that he didn't think I was gonna react that way...blah, blah, blah.
Things were going a little better between he and I until now, and now I don't know what to think, what to do...I've gathered that what he's hinting around at is that he got drunk and something may have happened while he was down there hangin' w/ some of his new "friends." But he keeps saying he doesn't know for sure, and if he says that he did and he didn't it'll cause what he called a "sh~t storm" to happen. I told him why did he even bring it up. He still says, "I don't know."
I have done nothing to deserve this. I have been the best wife I know how to be and I love him so much it hurts, and look at what he's doing to me. He's killing me. This pain he's causing me is killing me.
I couldn't even say bye to him today. I just shut his door and walked away. He didn't even try to do anything to reconcile anything.
I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice from any of you, or just prayers, or what. I've been gone off of here for so long I feel like I don't even deserve to be here anymore. You have all been such great friends to me, and I can't even make time to be a friend to y'all anymore, and I hate it, and I hope those of you that can and are willing will forgive me.
Please pray for me. Tell me what you would do, what I should do? I don't want to throw our marriage away, but it looks like that's what he wants to do.
I just don't know how much more I can take...
Thanks for listening (reading); sorry so long.
